Borrowing from the men. Well let me stop lying. Darn right stealing from the man with these here boyfriend jeans. These are my best friend’s jeans that I decided to peg (yup 80s style) and roll up so they could be a little more feminine. I’m currently rocking Gap 1969 Men’s Bootcut version in a 36×34, only because they are not mine. I think that a 34×32 would fit me far better. Actually because I cuff them, a 30 length is ideal.
I took these pictures outside of my biological father’s house while I was in Florida. When I say my dad, I always mean the man who raised me, my daddy, Lyonel. But I guess I am blessed because I have two of them. My Papa James is the man who provided me half of his genetics. And frankly I am more like him than I am like my mother. But my mother will always be my role model. She is just wonderful.
Back to my biological father. It took almost 30 years but we reunited. 2014 was the worst year of my life thus far. If you have been following the blog for a while then you know my struggles and my challenges during that time. I made solemn vows to myself to start to live my most authentic life and a huge part of that was letting go of grudges and resentment towards the man who helped create me.
So I wrote him a letter hashing out exactly how I felt and why I was choosing to forgive him. And then I forgave and never looked back since. I heavily credit my mother with this as she has always been so supportive and open to me welcoming him back into my life. I told ya’ll… she is the best.
I know we all have certain things in life that we resent or negative feelings we hold onto. I found through my recovery that I was holding on to them because it was comfortable. It was comfortable to feel like a victim. It was comfortable to have someone to loathe. It was comfortable to feel bad rather than go for happiness. I did not want disappointment so it was easier to always think the worse and assume the best was just a myth or out of touch. It was not until I knew I deserved the best that I started receiving it. Trust me, the universe listens. The universe always gives you what you deserve. So if you aren’t happy at the moment, truly look at your life and see what needs to be added and what needs to be cut. Take the leap and step out of your comfort zone. Being comfortable is not always a good thing. But most importantly being petty will always bring negativity to your life. Always. I know, because I used to be petty. No more. For what?
Tank: GAP | Jeans: GAP | Shoes: ShoeDazzle similar HERE | Glasses | Clutch: Lancôme makeup bag
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