I’m a spartan. An MSU spartan. The real MSU Spartan, as in Michigan State Spartans and green and white are our colors. (Yup, it was all shade what I wrote.) But it is what it is. When I threw on this green moto and white linen dress I didn’t even realize I was putting on my warrior colors. I just liked the way it looked. But I guess- green and white are just ingrained in my psyche. My Dad was the fiercest Spartan and I shall carry on that tradition.
Speaking of the most wonderful man in the world.
Today is my Dad’s birthday. He would have been 77 today and I probably would have already talked to him at midnight to sing to him. But instead, I can only have conversations with him and pray and hope and have all the faith I can muster that he can hear me. Faith is a tough thing. There is no black and white with it. It is a do you or don’t you. I want to. I try to. But having my Dad taken so soon in my eyes and in that way makes me have a lot of questions. Because frankly people like Agent Orange are alive and healthy. Yes, I said it. I just do not get it.
One day I will write a post about him and to share his wonderful attributes with all of you but I am not quite there yet. Grieving him is a completely different monster than it was for my grandmother. Both incredibly difficult and both surprisingly different.
Today sucks. I cannot even lie. The weather is absolutely gloomy in DC and I feel as if Mother Nature is crying the tears that I cannot get to spill today. I am not all cried out but my well is a little tapped out. I miss my dad. I miss him so much. Basically it sucks. It sucks, it suck, it sucks!
But what does not suck are birthdays. I love birthdays and I try my absolute best to make others birthdays special. On Sunday I celebrated my hairstylist and good friend, Alisa’s bday at Ris in DC. It was such an honor and pleasure to meet her framily and to see their bond. It is BEAUTIFUL!
For the brunch, I chose to wear my new J. Jill White Linen Embroidered shirt dress with a Brooks Brothers men’s tuxedo shirt wrapped around my waist and my Forever 21 Green Moto jacket. The red ShoeDazzle pumps were a game time decision per Jen’s Plus One’s advice and I am so happy I took it. It is such a simple outfit but I exuded style. My style. And there is no better style than that- your own.
Photos by J+J Photography!
Don’t view today as a gloomy day. See it as a pouring of love to replenish the green in the world and a restoration of your spirit. Rain is needed just as much as the sunshine. Enjoy the love your day is raining down on you. This will help you to continue to flourish. Happy birthday to your amazing dad!
Looking great! Loving this outfit. Happy birthday to Uncle Lyonel!! He is with you every day.
Thank you sooooo much NAthalia!!!
Miss him still very much sweetie. He would be so proud of you keep them colors and spirit going
Hey number 2!!! love you
Happy Birthday to your Dad! My thoughts are with you and I know it’s tough. I pray that you find some comfort , and I pray for your mom and sister too.
First you are in my thought and prayers, death of a loved isn’t easy especially a parent, but I do pray you find comfort and allow the memories you have of him bring you happier days.
Second, this is such a cute look, I am really digging the green moto jacket!!
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